Today, when my family and I sat around the dining table,
The fish tasted extra nice,
My sister handed me some potatoes and rice,
And I wanted to smile, but I was incapable
Of faking what I didn’t feel.
My mom noticed that something wasn’t quite right
And because I didn’t want to fight,
I asked her how she prepared the meal,
Just to say something - anything.
It scared me how I had zero motivation
To engage in a simple conversation,
Because I felt nada - not a single thing.
Today, I tried to write about my ex,
But in the end, I didn’t,
Because I haven’t felt angry, elated or excited
About anything -
In the last few weeks.
When I finally had that realization,
I goggled dissociation,
Because I needed to know,
Why I couldn’t feel
–Anything.
© Elena Natroshvili
IG: 16minutepoetry
Please keep in mind that poetry is fiction.
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